Today is a day where I let my heart dwell with
what should have been:
Balloons
Presents
Zoom birthday gathering in this strange new world.
You wouldn’t have really understood,
but I imagine you enjoying your
first birthday cake.
Books – you would have gotten so many books
for your birthday
and each night I would read to you,
one or maybe two
before bedtime.
Would you be trying to walk?
Speaking your first words – Dada
or maybe Cat or Dog.
I would’ve made sure you knew Mama too,
even if you didn’t use it much.
Even though your birthday would have fallen
so soon after the holidays,
we were determined to make sure you felt
special, loved.
Because you were special – you ARE special and loved.
George – today my heart dwells with what should have been,
with you and I, together.
You would have been my world.
My heart aches, and I shed tears –
it is just so quiet and wrong without you here.
There is a perfect George-sized hole
in my life,
which can never be filled in.
