2019 Sucked: My Thoughts on Loss, Grief, and Life After
My grief face today. I haven’t been writing lately and I worked too much over the last week, and I feel a breakdown building up. I’m so exhausted and this only magnifies my grief. Is this my life? No wife,… Read moreToday’s Grief Face
Is there a right way to accompany someone as they die? Is there a wrong way? Well – I’m pretty sure there are some ways that would most certainly be wrong, but I’m not really talking about those egregious type… Read moreQuestions with no answers
I know many of my writings touch on what it feels to interact with the world – people I know, people I don’t know – as a person who is grieving. I write about how people ask how I am… Read more“How are you doing?”
in my eyes, becomes the night. My soul feels connected to the night time much stronger than before, before I was plunged into this bizarre alternate reality, surrounded with grief. Night time is full of shadow – not cast by… Read moreNighttime Relief
Dear George, My beautiful boy, my son. Somehow it has been a full year since you entered and left this world all at once. It has been the worst year of my life, trying to process your death, then losing… Read moreA 1-year letter to George
…what happens when you return? Returning home after the death of a loved one who lives – lived – in that home with you is something that a million words couldn’t fully capture. I didn’t go home until the day… Read moreWhen You Return
How can they say we’ve failed? We went to so many doctor appointments (Between 10 and 15), 3 hospitalizations, 6 chemo sessions (which lasted 6-8 hours each), 10 radiation sessions, so many different scans, 2 surgeries… we saw SO MANY… Read moreWe did not fail